Trying to make the most of a bad situation
Can help sometimes
A sweet and delightful attitude to keep
In your pocket for those easy days
But the COVID-19 roller coaster
Roared into your home
Uninvited not long ago
Bringing with it carriages
Of anxiety, fear, rage, grief, uncertainty, overwhelm, etc, etc
In greater doses than normal
Yes, Yes
I know there are other carriages too
Like the one holding laughter you share with friends
And the gratitude for all that you have
Another bringing hope for a better future
And one with your incredible capacity to cope
There is an extra large one for the groceries
If you got on early you have one with toilet paper
And in my dreams there is one loaded with hand sanitiser.
But I am talking about the rough carriages
You know what I mean
The ones that really hurt
The ones that scare you, make you angry, make you cry
The ones you try to avoid
By eating, drinking, texting, scrolling, exercising, making the most of a bad situation etc, etc
Nothing wrong by the way
With eating, drinking, texting, scrolling, exercising, making the most of a bad situation etc, etc.
Let’s face it
Sometimes you have to do what ever you can do to get through the day.
Then
At other times when you least expect it
At the end of one of those days
The moon, almost full,
Shining its beams of wonder through your window
Might tap you on the shoulder,
Disrupting your stream of thought
Inviting you to sit in the silence
Of humanity slowing down
Begs you to wait at the inner station of your heart
Like a loving friend, longing to unite
With herself
Welcoming the arrival
Of sensation, emotion, tumultuous inner turmoil, fragile vulnerability
With the tenderness and wonder of a mother’s embrace
Dancing moon igniting
the courage of a divine goddess
Who opens to the intensity activating her soma
in an energetic pattern
That feels actually so familiar…..
Reminding you perhaps
Of previous arrival times backdated to somewhere in the past
That up until now you locked away
With eating, texting, drinking, exercising, scrolling, making the most of a bad situation etc etc
Could you be ready
To take the big leap of faith
Into those places
you have kept hidden from yourself and the rest of the world?
Perhaps there is no time like now
To meet yourself
Full on?
Or one little carriage at a time?
Perhaps this is the time
To explore those mysterious ones
See them, feel them, listen with your whole body
Shatter illusions of shame and fear
Fall in love with all of yourself over and over?
You know
However you choose to do it
Is of course perfect
Even if you decide
To just stick with
Eating, drinking, texting, scrolling, exercising, making the most of a bad situation etc etc
Until you are ready to let the train stop at your
divine inner station
Util you are ready to
resurrect
your heart